"It all turned on a dime," she said, shaking her head as if still trying to come to grips with it, fourteen years later. "One minute, we were living high on the hog. I had more dresses than I could count at age five, and it seemed my hair was never without a ribbon. Mother and Father belonged to the country club, and they had martinis every night with Mr. and Mrs. Loy from across the street. The next minute, Father was gone, having jumped to his death from the roof of the Stock Exchange, and Mother had transformed into a monster. I was too young to understand much of it, of course, but I was told that something called a depression was on, and that it was the cause of Father's suicide, and that it was the reason for our moving from Manhattan to a tiny, smelly apartment in Queens."
"That's all well and good, ma'am, but like I said, you're gonna have to clear out of here," the policeman repeated, his patience straining. "There's still a war on, and we've got a troop train due to stop here in the next half-hour, and there's a trainload of brand-new tanks coming out of the yard ahead of that."
"I understand," Cecelia Graveside said, careful not to meet the officer's eyes.
"So listen," he continued, "I got a heart, lady. Really, I do. You can come back here tonight, if this campsite is so important to you--"
"It is important," she insisted.
"But the Army don't want a bunch of hoboes hangin' around the tracks, you know? And when the MPs show up, trust me, they ain't gonna be as nice about this as I am. So I'm asking you one last time..."
"I'm going, I'm going," she said, slinging her stick and bindle over a shoulder, and patting the makeshift grave marker of her late hobo husband. "I'll be back dear," she whispered to it. She stepped past the officer and toward the town square, across the tracks. Between her and the square, a couple of dozen newly-enlisted men gathered, worried wives and flag-waving children in tow. Cecelia plotted a route that she hoped would help her avoid the whole scene. She sighed heavily.
"Ma'am?" the cop called after her. She stopped, but did not turn back. "I know it's none of my business and all, but, well..."
"Yes?"
"I was just wondering if you've tried signing up for one of those jobs at the factory - you know, like Rosie the Riveter."
"I have not," she said flatly. "That is to say, not at that particular factory."
"Well, I heard they're still at least two dozen hands short - even on the first shift. I heard they're taking everybody. They got free training. They might even have some spots left in the workers' dormitory. I know it's not my place - I'm just tryin' to help..."
Cecelia turned to face the earnest young peace officer, and a tear made a surprise exit from her eye and onto her cheek, where it was made to feel so profoundly unwelcome that it leapt off, fell to the ground and exploded. "Mister, I know better than to get in line outside that factory. Don't get me wrong - it's a swell idea, and I'm not sore at you for the suggestion. But you see, since I lost my dear husband, I've tried twenty other factories, just like that one - from New York City to Chicago and back again. Every time, I've gone in with a smile on my face, hope in my heart, and a firm handshake. I still have my handshake, but that's about it. I can't take another rejection. Mother used to say that hope springs eternal, but I can tell you, it doesn't."
"I understand," the policeman said. "I don't blame you." A loud, throaty steam whistle echoed through the town. "That'll be the tank train. Time to move along. Take care of yourself, okay?"
"I will." Cecelia Graveside made her way around the gathering military conscripts and their loved ones, up Main Street to the town square.
She stopped. Hope hung in tatters above her.
Her dreams, she had often said, were the stray dogs that ran around the rail yard, and sometimes followed her. She looked to her right, at the road that led to the next town. She turned to her left, where the smokestacks of the factory peeked above the low skyline. She sighed, looked up at the sun, shook her head slowly, and started walking.
...eternal. Photo by [Maris]. |
This one springs forth from yet another STUDIO 30 PLUS writing prompt. This time, the goal was to use "hung in tatters above her," a phrase lifted from fellow blogger Tara at THIN SPIRAL NOTEBOOK.
Love it! And I especially love meeting a lady tramp -- she's quite a lady. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Katy! There were definitely hobo women, and I found at least 25 names on Hodgman's list. Most of them had silly names, but I wanted to put "hope" in front of the prompt phrase, so I went with Ms. Graveside.
ReplyDeleteLooking through the names got the wheels turning, so watch for more of these odd little back stories, soon!
This is such a great piece - I love the image of the tear and the last paragraph is just wonderful.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Kelly! I'm glad you liked it. In the interest of full disclosure, I got the concept for the tear from the name of an old, old, OLD band called The Teardrop Explodes. I've been holding onto it for decades.
DeleteI can totally relate to this character. I’ve been in that place, where you get rejected so many times you don’t think you have any hope left & all you can do is sigh, nod and just keep taking another step. Great piece.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Vinny! I write a lot of my hoboes this way, hanging by that last thread of hope - or failing to do so. It's probably rather telling that this concept comes so naturally to me.
DeleteAnyway, thanks for stopping by. I'm trying to get caught up on your blog, too. So many fantastic posts...
Now I want more of her, her growing up, the challenges of the switch, the monster-mama, etc. Great job Joey!
ReplyDeletep.s. kudos to Maris for the image. Wow!
Woohoo - One of my unconscious desires (now made conscious, because I'm telling you) with the hobo pieces is to give you JUST enough of a picture that you find them interesting enough to be left wanting to know the rest. I swear, half of them could turn into novels.
DeleteAnd [Maris] is very proud of that photo, so many thanks there, too. She points out that it was taken "with a real camera - like, with film and everything - and not digitally enhanced in any way!" :)
The image of her tear exploding is so powerful. I really need to pester my dad about his hobo stories.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Tara! And thanks for the very prompt-worthy phrase. I love the exploding teardrop - even if I did sort borrow that from an old post-punk/new-wave-ish band from the Stone Age. I'd love to hear some real hobo stories, too. It's like a whole world, separate from ours, but within it.
DeleteOooh. I really like this one. When a person loses their pride, it is to the core. You hit the nail on the head.
ReplyDeleteThanks - I'm glad you enjoyed it! Pride and Hope were probably the first victims of the hobo's life. My hat is off to the survivors of that world.
DeleteThanks for stopping by!